Sunday, May 21, 2006

End of an era

Ladies and gentlemen, the time has come.

I started this blog in April 2005. The Other Half had suggested it as a way of calming my neurotic, over-active brain. I was living with Small Person after leaving the Ex six months previously. I had a lot going on - there were enormous changes in my life that I need to process, and blogging helped. It helped a huge amount. I talked through stuff that bothered me, ranted about all the stupid little things that irritate me on a daily basis. I bared my soul, I talked bollocks and I made some very good friends.

Over the last couple of weeks or so, as I've sat down to write, I've come to realise that there isn't anything I need to say. I've kept on banging out the odd post, but it hasn't flowed like it used to. Whatever was driving me to spill out six hundred frenzied words on what I had for tea, and why do people leave the labels on their shoes, and aren't people annoying...well, it's calmed down. I feel more able to deal with the things life throws at me, and the things that have happened to make me into the unstable fuckup you've been kind enough to listen to for the last year. It's weird, and this lack of headless-chickenness has bothered me, so I've thought about it and I think I've figured it out.

I'm happy.

So there you go. It's been fun, infuriating and heartbreaking in equal measure. Some of the things I've written have made me laugh out loud, some have had me sobbing like a baby. All of them have been an exercise in understanding who and what I am. I don't like some of the things I've learned, and there's a way to go before I can even begin to describe myself as at peace, but I'm getting there.

I'm leaving the blog up, so you all get to keep your links. I want to thank everyone who's dropped by and felt moved to comment. I want to thank the lurkers, the accidental tourists and all the people so obsessed with Gloria Hunniford's hairstyle that they have boosted my daily traffic by ooh, four hits or so. But it's done*. Time to go. Everyone out of the pool.

Carry on.

* I do of course reserve the right to miss blogging and start again in a month's time. Probably.

56 Comments:

Blogger james henry chimed in with...

I miss you.

21 May, 2006 19:52  
Anonymous betty chimed in with...

Gorblimey.

*numb with shock*

You do realise that you are now going to get about 250 comments from people who will threaten to throw themselves off buildings and under trains and stuff, don't you?

21 May, 2006 20:26  
Blogger Geoff chimed in with...

I'm happy, too, within these walls. But there's always something that happens out there.

We'll miss you.

21 May, 2006 20:36  
Blogger funny thing chimed in with...

Shocked silence.

*Weeps, gnashes teeth, reaches for gun*

21 May, 2006 22:10  
Blogger MJ chimed in with...

Please keep the door open. We'll welcome you back with arms wide open.

21 May, 2006 23:39  
Blogger FUNKYBROWNCHICK chimed in with...

You'll be back. You'll miss us too much. ;) But, of course, it won't be as much as we miss you ...

22 May, 2006 00:21  
Anonymous pink chimed in with...

go for your life, girl.

you've been ... funny ;p

22 May, 2006 01:03  
Blogger Kyahgirl chimed in with...

You can't escape me Surly. *evil laugh*

you don't actually have to have blog to run around commenting and playing in the blogosphere. I hope you'll keep in touch.
xoxo

22 May, 2006 01:43  
Blogger zanna chimed in with...

I'll miss it, But you know what it's about time you were happy. You deserve to be.

22 May, 2006 08:32  
Blogger Spinsterella chimed in with...

You'll be back.

(Hopefully)

22 May, 2006 09:15  
Blogger frangelita chimed in with...

No. I refuse to accept this. Although, obviously, I'm glad you are happy. Ditto Kyahgirl's expectation that you're going to keep popping in.

22 May, 2006 10:16  
Blogger the Beep chimed in with...

The neighbours. S'all I'm saying.

x

22 May, 2006 10:54  
Blogger looby chimed in with...

Maybe just put it to bed for a while until your juices start flowing again (ooer). It'd be a big loss if you went for ever though.

22 May, 2006 12:00  
Blogger Moo chimed in with...

Dont go Surly!! Please.......!

22 May, 2006 12:18  
Blogger LĂ©onie chimed in with...

I haven't commented before, and now is probably slightly late in the game to start, but I've really enjoyed reading everything you've written, thanks for entertaining me.

Good luck, I'm glad you're happy.

22 May, 2006 12:23  
Blogger Annie Rhiannon chimed in with...

Bye bye Surly Girl. Can I have your readers please?

Annie xxx

22 May, 2006 12:54  
Blogger soph chimed in with...

for a moment there, i thought "no! she's not allowed to be happy! somebody stop her, she's breaking the law".
but then i realised that that reaction may have been a *little* selfish. thanks for all the giggles, laughs and "oh. that's actually a little disturbing"s.

22 May, 2006 13:17  
Blogger Perry Neeham chimed in with...

Just 'cause you're happy doesn't mean you'll never get pissed off again, or, (more likely) never want to impart some brilliant insight on the human condition again!

Happily, blogging does not require you to post weekly, monthly or even yearly. Don't leave us for ever - just post when you have something to say.

22 May, 2006 13:57  
Blogger claire chimed in with...

But wait! But... Nooooooo!

You can't leave us. Hey! I've only just found you!

Blech... sad now.

22 May, 2006 14:48  
Blogger Huw chimed in with...

I for one demand some sort of souvenir.

I am baggsying the clock.

22 May, 2006 17:10  
Anonymous Stu Savory chimed in with...

Unfair! Immoral! Injust!

Surly, you have a moral duty to keep entertaining us, at least occasionally ;-)
Personally I think blog better when I'm happy.
We shall see, one of these daze (sic!) ;-)

Stu

22 May, 2006 18:09  
Blogger Jemima chimed in with...

The high price of high rise living. [sobs]

22 May, 2006 19:20  
Blogger First Nations chimed in with...

my darling, it's been a blast. i will miss you.
dammit, i will miss you.
be happy.

22 May, 2006 20:00  
Blogger It's Me, Maven... chimed in with...

Good luck in your new endeavors, adventures, and happiness.

22 May, 2006 20:42  
Blogger shiftclick chimed in with...

What you said ... and oh-so-succinctly. Thank you. Can I add a "me too"? OK, ME TOO!

22 May, 2006 21:08  
Blogger Stef the engineer chimed in with...

I came across your blog when faced with both more difficult times and with more free time to give it. Write when you feel like it, and we'll all still read it when we can. (But don't become "Happy Girl" in your blog - wouldn't be the same.

22 May, 2006 22:26  
Blogger Liz chimed in with...

Please don't stop. Awfully glad about the happy, though.

22 May, 2006 22:57  
Blogger Arabella chimed in with...

Happy is good so go get some.
Love your blog though, so I will miss you regularly being all funny and interesting.
And I'll be checking.

23 May, 2006 00:13  
Blogger mig bardsley chimed in with...

I'm gobsmacked!
I'm so glad you are happy SG but, you'll still have...opinions, won't you? On well, things?
I do hope so, the absence of a D-Flat chime bar will leave a huge hole in the blogithing.

Are there C-Sharp chime bars?

23 May, 2006 01:41  
Blogger tom909 chimed in with...

And I was just going to link to you - Sod you then!
But top marks for the van that looks like a guinea pig - that on its own makes blogging worthwhile.

23 May, 2006 08:14  
Blogger rockmother chimed in with...

I love your blog and your writing. Happiness is a wonderful thing and blogging takes up so much time! I'll keep checking in case. Big hug. Rockmother x

23 May, 2006 10:21  
Blogger The Swearing Lady chimed in with...

But I only just got here!

23 May, 2006 14:51  
Blogger Fifi chimed in with...

Ohhh! (Said in teenage whine...), I like to read you every day, but at least I can talk to you in real life whenever I like (smug. Pleased).

Don't stop the creativity though - hope you find another outlet for your wondrous writing talent. Would be a real shame otherwise.

Love you my fabulous surly sis!

xxxxx

Really? You're really going??

23 May, 2006 17:07  
Anonymous Zippy chimed in with...

Hhhmmm. Time to rummage around the old archives, then. (Ya, tart!)

23 May, 2006 17:53  
Anonymous Anonymous chimed in with...

Fare thee well

23 May, 2006 19:28  
Blogger 30-Something chimed in with...

Aw poo.

Ah well, all good things must come to an end.

Ya little bugger.

23 May, 2006 21:05  
Blogger garfer chimed in with...

Oh dear.

Never mind, anyone who leaves a blog up returns to it within a month like a dog to its own thingies.

Thus spake Bob Monkhouse.

23 May, 2006 21:13  
Anonymous Whinger chimed in with...

I shouldn't be sad that you're happy.

And yet.

23 May, 2006 22:19  
Blogger GreatSheElephant chimed in with...

harrumph. I'm going to have to edit my blog roll again. Pah

Very glad you are happy though
xx

23 May, 2006 22:23  
Blogger bedshaped chimed in with...

I'm so pleased about your reasons for leaving this place.
I'd like to get where you are one day.
Good Luck Surly x

23 May, 2006 23:24  
Blogger Inexplicable DeVice chimed in with...

I'm glad you're happy but I'll miss your bewildering phobias!

I'll drop by now and again in case you care to disclose a new one :)

24 May, 2006 19:29  
Blogger rockmother chimed in with...

Come on....! We know you are reasing all the commments. ;-)

24 May, 2006 23:50  
Blogger rockmother chimed in with...

oops - I meant reading!

24 May, 2006 23:51  
Anonymous Other Half chimed in with...

I'm sure the Surly one will return at some point in the not too distant future. She is simply far too good at this blogging game to let it rest although I am so pleased by the reasons she has given for stepping back from it now. I hope I have contributed in some way to her happiness as I cannot put into words just how happy she makes me.

25 May, 2006 15:46  
Blogger rockmother chimed in with...

I'm just going off for a cry - that's so lovely.

25 May, 2006 17:25  
Blogger surly girl chimed in with...

don't give up on me yet, kids (as if anyone's still looking).

plans are afoot....

(meaning, i am pathetic and miss blogging already. stay tuned....)

25 May, 2006 20:40  
Blogger Kyahgirl chimed in with...

Other half-I'm so glad you are loving our surly girl to the best of your abilities. You rock.

Garfer is wise.

25 May, 2006 21:59  
Blogger shiftclick chimed in with...

Surly Girl, I NEED you, damn it. NOW! FRONT AND CENTER!

26 May, 2006 02:02  
Blogger the Beep chimed in with...

aw, c'mon. The neighbours must be getting on yer tits a bit by now. Tell us all, we're agog.....

26 May, 2006 10:14  
Blogger patroclus chimed in with...

Blogging's not just for whingers. You could write about the things that make you happy. It's all I've been doing for the last six months or so.

Coincidentally, I was also planning to stop blogging for a bit because I've entered my annual three-month stint of RAGE and DESPAIR. So maybe I'll just write about THINGS I HATE and you write about why you're so happy, and then no one has to edit their blogroll?

26 May, 2006 12:43  
Anonymous Other Half chimed in with...

Talking to my lovely SG I reckon it won't be too much longer before she makes a triumphant return. She's getting Blogger withdrawal symptoms and that's not a good thing.

As suggested, the painful, more thought provoking subjects can be mostly closed but I believe there's plenty of ammunition out there to fuel a well written, humourous rant or two !!!

26 May, 2006 13:36  
Blogger zanna chimed in with...

we want you back!

26 May, 2006 15:06  
Blogger Dave F chimed in with...

Well, at least you're leaving of your own accord. Blogger has barred me from my own blog. A merciful release then ...

26 May, 2006 17:31  
Blogger rockmother chimed in with...

How can blogger bar you from your own blog?

28 May, 2006 11:43  
Blogger Wyndham chimed in with...

I go away for five minutes and what happens? Someone throws themselves off a tall building.

I hope you've crossed your fingers behind your back.

28 May, 2006 11:49  
Blogger greta chimed in with...

Awww... Baby Jesus' bollocks.

There goes another good one.
Best of luck with your non-bloggerly pursuits.

And thank you.

29 May, 2006 13:13  

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